Too Good To Be true

2009, january 7

7 days gone, things come and go. I started 2009 with a few shockers.

1. two of my friends starting smoking, eh actually, one only. the other started smoking way back and kept it a secret for a long time. Shahirah, who just started smoking, out fo boredom (what a dumb thing to start for) was faking it. She didn't even inhale the smoke. Bloody hell, if you wanna smoke then smoke it properly, if you're faking it then don't waste your fucking money on that fucking thing. While Hafriz started smoking ages ago, I was in total shocked that he kept it a secret for a long while and all this while, we didn't even suspect anything cos he didn't even look like he smoked. God, oh well, what to do. I don't know why I feel bias towards Hafriz. Ok, maybe one, cause he is very close with his cousins and some of them do smoke and family easily influence you. But as for Shahirah, it's no fucking excuse to smoke just because you're bored and what more you're not smoking it properly, ugh! Whatever, leave it. Ranting about this thing is just wasting my energy. I told myself, New Year, I'm not going to bother about this kind of ppl.

2. I finally have the courage to tell Cristian that we're off. Finally have the courage of not worrying on what's gonna happen next because that's one of my resolutions, well yeah this is one of my resolutions, that is not to worry so much any more(: Just live my life and that's what I'm doing, no regrets on what I'm doing and always look on the positive side(: Throw away the bad stuff, don't even think about it and look forward.

3. I met a new friend, online, yeah while playing pool. Kyle, he said was his name, from California and he's 18. What shocked me was he was sssoo Hot and very sweet and romantic. He could make my heart melt, seriously. I told my friends and yeap they have the reaction as me. But we all had another reaction to it, is it too good to be true? C'mon it's online anything can happen to anyone. It can be lie, esp his picture and maybe he's being romantic to me cos he thinks I'm just cute? yeah, maybe.I'll just have to be very careful. Cos I've only talked to him once, 1, uno, satu, one time. And haven't spoken to him since Sunday morning. But the fucking problem is, I can't stop thinking about him. I guess its natural that I feel that way? Cos I enjoy talking to him. Funny, very confident and that makes him so sexy. I have to be strong and not be fooled by him, if he's gonna lie to me. As for now, I just wish he could come online so I get to talked to him again.

Yeah, those were the few shockers in my life for the started of the year. Still OK, not so bad, ay?