So many misses

But just one person.

I'm gonna miss baby once I've start school. I can't stay up late at night any more next week. I'm not ready for school. I want you with me, by my side all the time. I don't want us to go to school, lol. But that dream won't turn into a reality unless it's pleasantville and you control it. I don't wanna go to school and I want baby to come here asap! I know I act like a baby, esp ytd when I felt so down and all I want is to talk to baby but he has school. Just wish he could skip it for me, grrr. See how baby-ish I am and I'm already 16, grow up will ya?

And then he promise to get online in school and so he did. But before that I was so grumpy, I kinda spat back at him unintentionally. I'm really sorry for that. These days things are going so crazy and I don't undestand my emotions. And it's horrible. Honestly I dont want to start my new school, even though I have companies there and I am comfortable with them. I just wanna go home and snuggle in bed and dream that am I in wonderland with baby. God, fuck it man. First I can't wait for school, now I hate school even w/out stepping into school. What the hell man?!? Fuck, Fuck, Fuck!

And now i miss you so fucking badly, our little time together isn't enough but a friend taught me we shouldn't be greedy or else we would be punish but i cant help to ask for more cos i really feel time never gave us enough compared to others. couples can call their lovers now in the middle of the night and ask for company. Ask for comfort, hearing their voices will soothe them but I cant feel that, which sucks big time. I would give anything to be with baby now. i really would. I should be contented, should be happy tht i do have a boy loving me with all his heart :)