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OK, what shall I say? I guess I'm off to Australia in 2 days time? Yeap, 2 days. Not long ya know. 48 hours plus plus to go. Lol. Excited? Yeah but I'm more worried about my clothes. Lol, I don't have enough clothes to last 15 days. And, 15 days aint enough to do what I want over there cos there's still my family who would want to go here and there. Hmph, thats not the fun to me, that is. Because I want to do my own stuff at my own free time. Oh well right, my parents are paying to don't bloody argue. And ok, 2 books down, 2 more books to go. So that's four books. I decided to discard my other 2 books. Looks boring, so I shan't read them. Less books, less library fines(:



So I know its tiring but ya know what? Yesterday as I was writing down my thoughts about cristian, (yes I like to write em down), I started to tear. I brushed it off but as I continue to write, I couldn't control em anymore. My nose instantly turned red and luckily my sis didn't suspect anything, she thought i was sick, rright. Hahah. Dumb. Ok, so anyway, as I couldn't take it, I thought of just telling him through email, and get over with it. I wouldn't wait for his reply and just get on with life. I wouldn't care less about what he said. But as I deepened my thoughts, I realise this isnt fair for him, firstly, it's the wrong timing. What happens if he takes it too hard and flung his studies? That could happen, I wouldn't know cos we're far apart. So I don't want to hurt in that way so bad. Also, I don't think I'm ready, I still love him. I really do, I don't know what I would do if it's OVER. It's going to hurt me so bad. So I've decided to hang on. Hang on real tight and wait for the oppurtune moment. I'm still sad, who the hell wouldn't be??

But I've got to get real and get on with life while waiting. That's the only thing I can do(: ciao