i think i've found it

well, like i said things can just happen. you have to be patient to let what you want come true.
don't understand the freaking crapp i'm saying? well, seriously, after what i just vomit out few days ago, i really i was going to suffer, well, i mean, i thought i was not going to make. i thought that i will be moping arnd all day, trying to find my way. yes just like my pic(: but, that was in the begining. now, i'm telling myself that, i want to get my mind away from all this. yes, i'm doing it.

i am now thinking of my friends, and thinking of hari raya haji tmr, well, later actually. ok not really. i don't really bother much becos it's not as happening as hari raya puasa, or aid mubarak as some people would say. so yes, i'm thinking of my friends. thinking where shall i squeeze all of them in one week. that's becos i am going off to australia to meet my cousin who migrated there a few years ago. so now, finally i get to meet him. so i want to prepare, and pack my clothings as soon as possible. i am really paranoid about the things i'm going to pack. seriously, i'm going for 2 weeks and being a girl, i'll definitely pack too many things and will make my bag explode. yikes, i don't want it to explode in front of alot of people, like the airport. it's embarassing. hoho.

so yes back to my beloved friends. i have so many different batched of friends. some are from band(: love them, miss them. some just wanna catch up cos, i don't know for what actually. yeah my two best friends. i miss them loads. and they are a defnite yes and a must to go out with. i haven't met both of them together, as like the 3 of us. just the 3 of us watching the world pass by, :D yeah that meeting, is a MUST! and yes, i still have a band concert to attend to. my senior is playing and i miss him. ok we miss each other becos it's a really really long time since we meet up. oh gosh, so many people to meet, so little time and so little clothes! goodness me. so now that's more important than thinking about cristian. i'm sure he is very busy now studying for his finals.

though it's not really over and it's still at the back of my mind :(( i have to seriously stop this. i have to, no mater what. i don't want to suffer and get hurt anymore. i have to stop hurting myself. And i promise myself, i will.