i take it back

i take back what i said, sid. i am in pain i guess. and wanna knw why?
i've made a huge regrettable mistake which is haunting me right now.
i mean i made a mistake which i wish i hadnt done it
but now i can be forgiven no matter how much i plea.

i miss him so badly. if only im given the chance, i would want to turn back time and redo what i have done wrong. if only i had cherished the moments and asked for something more. cos i only have little, tiny, fragile memories of you. i cant do this. i cant keep thinking of "if only". Its over and done with. but i now i keep waiting for you. keep waiting for your reply, keep thinking what happened to you, are you safe? are you alright? are you happy? are you with some one else? though i will be so jealous but i have to force myself to be happy cos its for the best. i wanna talk to you so badly. i can only say so much but you wont even hear my cies and apologies. even though i've decided to break away, you still havent reply me, you havent say anything, so my deicision is hanging on a lose thread. its so hard to keep it together. its so hard for me stay compose cos every time i wanna cry. i wanna cry cos everything's gone. everything's different. i feel that you're gone. i cant do this. i broke all our promises and im fighting to love some one else. i can't do this. I Can't. cos you havent speak to me for so long. i need to knw. i need to knw everything. I MISS YOU. BUT I knw you dont cos you hate me right now