Finally

finally you've replied, finally i felt some relieved. after all my cries and pleas, you forgive me. im glad that you're getting ready for college. im happy for you but dont blame yourself, please dont. maybe its me who needs to grow up. yes i do agree im kinda needy, i dont know why, maybe becos im so attached to you. i need you so much but i know i cant always have you. your life doesnt revolve arnd me no more. but its so hard trying to not being needy. i wish i am just right beside you right now. i wish things were different. but i cant change it. i miss you is all i can feel. i love you is all i can profess. being with you is all i ever wish for. So now that you've replied me, i guess i have to wait another two/three months for another reply? i hope i can survive tht. i really hope so. i cant go through another horrible meltdown that had me sick for days and make me unable to speak. i felt depressed, so depressed. i dont know what to do now. im stuck. as always