learning point

i realize, i believe it's a duh and it is the correct thing that i should let go off cristian, for good. like really really. i will save myself from tired nights of hot stinging tears and also from hurting scott. it is evil, cruel of me that i want cristian back when i'm actually with scott. it is so wrong but all i want is to tell him how i feel, how sorry i am and to show him that the best thing right now is for us to be far apart as possible cause it will only hurt us more. it pains me to even think of that but i keep telling myself its for the best. though i may not agree with it now but i believe once i tell cristian this, it will all be alright? i hope so. i just dont want to regret making that decision cause i know once i've decided there's no changing of my mind or his mind for that matter. thats the hardest part :(

and i think one of the days, me and scott will break up but if we want to be together forever, i think we will patch things up and have a better relationship. i wont be surprise as a matter a factly.